Thursday, November 1, 2012

Cosmo



Dudley Elf and Santa Poodle

We said goodbye to our poodle of 14 years last night. He was a tough little guy. He was diabetic for 6 and a 1/2 years.....living much longer than the average 2 years life expectancy of a diabetic diagnosis.

This is us yesterday at the end.
When I knew the decision had to be made to let him go.

I'm hurting. empty. 
numb to certain surroundings
yet some of the most minuscule are amplified
the simple is bigger. the big now small.

we grew into our own together. he loved snout kisses
barking at our neighbor dog Zeke Carlisle.
he loved watermelon 
and rides in the car.
he stood aside as Dudley rooted his way to the water bowl
patiently waiting.

He was simply the love of my life.
8/15/98 - 10/31/12


During this time, I'm taking a break from all that now seems small.....Facebook, email, twitter, etc. 
For the next few weeks, I must take this time to fully feel and grieve. I'll be deactivating my facebook account on Friday (11-2) and won't be answering emails. If you send me an email during that time please resend it in a few weeks.

32 comments:

liz elayne lamoreux said...

i am so sorry mindy. sending over so much love to you today.

serendipity said...

hugs from Italy

Brandi Marie said...

Mindy, My heart just aches for you. What a beautiful soul. Love of your life, I know just how you feel. Take all the time you need to heal and care for yourself. And always remember and honor that special love, as I know you will. Sending love and hugs to you <3

~Brandi Marie

Heather Williams said...

Ohhh, I'm so deeply sorry, Mindy...I understand this kind of deep, to the core, furry love...& time of transition. May you grieve deeply & fully w/ a ravenous desire until it is tender...soft...& free. Take all the time you need... ~H♥~

Micki Wilde said...

Oh hun I am so sorry, my thoughts are with you!!

Take your time to grieve x

Nolwenn said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Mindy.
Take the time you need to grieve.
Sending you warm love.
Take care

Dawn D. Sokol said...

Oh, sweetie...I am SO sorry...I know the time is coming with my Lucy as well. I'm here if you need me. Can't wait to see you on Monday...

Susie said...

All my thoughts are with you during this very sad time in your life. I know how hard it is. I had to make the same desicion last Jan. I'm still healing, I still think about her, I still cry from time to time. Just know I understand from very deep down inside. These soft balls of fur as no different than the people we love in our lives. Your heart is broken, take all the time you need. Very big, hugs Mindy

PurpleSuzi said...

Love you SO much Mindy. You take all the time you need to grieve and heal.
There are no rules when we lose someone we love.
I wish I could hold you.
Your artwork arrived today, a beautiful gift!
Thank you.
Take care of you xx <3 xx

Cristi Baxter Clothier said...

So very sorry for your loss. Our girl Bailey is soon to be 9 and I dread the day that we might have to say goodbye to her.

My heart breaks for you.

Be blessed!

Alisa Steady said...

OH, Mindy. I am so so sorry for your loss. I cried reading your post. I know that kind of deep love. Thinking of you and hoping your heart heals soon, filled with wonderful warm memories that will never leave you. xoxo

Gloria said...

Dear Mindy.
I am sending you a huge hug and may bright light guide you on your healing path..love you G

Michelle LaPoint Rydell said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart aches for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

danielle said...

Mindy,

So sorry for your loss. I understand each word you shared and hope that you find comfort and healing in the weeks to come.

love,
danielle

Leah Virsik said...

I'm so sorry Mindy. Sending you love and peace. Take care of yourself in your grieving time. I love what Heather Williams wrote about that. Sending you a big virtual hug.

smd46 said...

My dear Mindy, I am so very, very sorry for the pain and loss of your best friend. I remember you talking about him while we were in France.

Not only did he love you while being by your side, but he gave you the opportunity to minister to his needs and love him completely while he was sick.

I can only send my love, a warm hug and my deepest sympathy for your loss.
take care,
Sharyn (Davis)

Ella said...

I'm so sad n' sorry Mindy~
No words-but cherish your memories~
Our furry family members are an amazing gift~ They give us so much!
Gather photos of him and make a collage, when you are ready~
I'm so sorry for your loss xo

danielle daniel said...

Oh Mindy, thinking of you so much and holding your heart in mine. I'm here for you always. Cosmo was a blessed little spirit to have you as his Mama. Love you and please take care, xox

Mary Ann said...

Sending you peace as you struggle through your grief.... Wish i could make it better oxoxox Mary Ann

Jane Blogs said...

My heart goes out to you, Mindy.
I know just how you're feeling, sending love and healing your way.
xox

Kristin said...

I'm so sorry. LOVE to you! xoxo

Lynda M. Metcalf said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, Mindy. I've been there and it's never easy. Your taking time to grieve is so smart. My thoughts are with you.

Cindy Ellison said...

I feel your pain, Mindy. I am sorry your heart is broken.

Chrisanne said...

Dearest Mindy, these fur babies are our tiny thread to the child inside, the woven mystery of the Universe that cares about our deepest dreams...little Cosmo was your sweet bear and I send my heartfelt condolences in kind sisterly tenderness. Take extra bubble baths, be fluffier with your Soul than usual, KNOW that I am sending kind prayers and love during your time of loss...soft, dear hugs. may your heart know healing now and always. xo Chrisanne

curious girl (lisa) said...

oh cosmo, i love you for loving mindy. i love you for your loyalty and adoration and your poodletude.

mindy, i love you for loving cosmo. for allowing him to fulfill his doggy destiny to love one human like they've never known.

valeri blossom said...

love love love you, babe!

MB Shaw said...

Awe, honey, I just don't know what to say that might help. Just know that we all *get it.* So very painful. I am so sad. Love you, sweetie.

Bella said...

I am so sorry for your loss, Mindy. xo

sonia said...

so very sorry to hear about your loss, take care sweetie and take the time you need to grieve.

lotush2o said...

Mindy~ Sending lots of love, light and healing your way. Take good care...
~ Hilda D.

Jane Blogs said...

Thinking of you, and hope you're feeling a little better.
Hugs, Jane xox

Chisgetta said...

I'm SO sorry to hear of your loss. I know the pain you must be feeling as I too have lost my 4-legged soulmate!
Time does heal the deep pain, but the wonderful memories of unconditional love will stay with you forever x <3 x