Friday, March 22, 2013

Happiness is an acquired taste

There is something about today. I can't put my finger on it. I'm feeling very raw. Maybe its due to some writing and releasing that I've been doing. Maybe its because as Spring arrives, its still very winter here. Maybe the coyote that run through the yard at a very particular time while I was writing brought me closer into my core of being. I feel nostalgic for my younger years, yet I'm so thankful to be in this less-chaotic existence. 

I'll admit, when I first went out on my own, married my husband and didn't have all the drama of home.....it felt foreign. It felt nice. I then realized I was experiencing happy. A happy, uneventful, calm life. I suppose I can almost understand when people get caught up in a life of chaos, destruction, and negativity that its hard to break the cycle. There may be some that continue down that road because that is the only WAY of being for them. I'm not saying I broke it gracefully. nope. I invented chaos. I picked fights. I believe I didn't deserve the life I was living. The only way I knew to exist was in a life of turmoil......all the while stating loudly in my soul that it wasn't what I wanted at all. Why must we invite and embrace this low energy? It serves no one, especially not you.

Leave it behind and feel happiness run all over your being. Get out into nature and yell into your journal. Allow it to rest on the shoulders of a higher Power. Get used to the foreign feeling of happiness. I promise you, you will grow to love it. Happiness is an acquired taste. Give it a chance.


21 comments:

  1. Oh Mindy you made me have a little tear in my eye!!

    My word for the year this year is Happy, sometimes it feels so hard to reach but when you let it in it soaks through you and passes on to others.....I love Happy!!

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  2. There is something about today, yes.
    I smiled, because for the past few days I've been thinking a lot (too much for my likings) about the first years of 2000s, what my life was, who I was then. and who I am now, 10-13 years later.
    Raw. Sensitive. Wide open.
    Sending you lots of love.

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  3. Deeply appreciating your words and honesty. Can deeply relate over here...yes.

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  4. Oh sweetheart this so speaks to my soul! My extended family has been working on creating some calm after realizing that for years we lived in a chaos that lead to so much stress and sadness.

    Sometimes when I'm alone in my house and it's all quiet I look around and can't help but smile. I laughed the first time I realized so this is what real happiness is! I am so thankful to be living a life now with a man who knows how to celebrate the little moments and who encourages happiness and a life full of love. But man sometimes it's hard to let go of the old bad habits of expecting the chaos and stress.

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  5. jessica sicilianoMarch 22, 2013 at 4:12 PM

    thank you for sharing yourself. brave and strong, beautiful you.

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  6. beautiful, brave, honest words. I love seeing your heart on the page like this and can so relate to this deeply. I think we all go through moments of this and talking about it and shedding some light on it is such a good thing.

    Sending you so much love.

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  7. I've done it too...not being happy til I'm unhappy. Thank you for sharing your wisdom. Wishing you much happiness.

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  8. Very well written and meaningful. Very down to earth and honest. I dont believe I have lived in turmoil or chaos (that I recognized) so I am grateful I know what happiness is, and reading your piece reminds me to appreciate what I do have. thanks for the nudge and much happiness to you now and in the future.

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  9. Wonderful post, Mindy. I'm a mom of two little ones and sometimes I get lost. I do so much for others I forget about me. It's a bad habit all women get into. Choosing happiness starts with accepting for me. You have to accept where you are right now, in this moment. Doing this will help. I am usually looking at what id rather be doing instead of accepting where I am. I might find treasure if I do that more often.

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  10. Hello Mindy!

    You are a wonderful artist. I love your spirit! You are a beautiful and colorful soul!!!

    Magaly

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  11. The title to this post is so captivating! And what you shared rings true to the core of my being, Mindy. Thank you for being so open! I've always said maintaining a happy upbeat composure most of the time is extremely difficult because being down and low energy is easy. But anything worth having and feeling that is positive is worth the energy and self checking for being happy, and appreciating happy when you see it, and are living it. Thank you again, Mindy!! xoxox

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  12. This post I can so relate to, Thank You for sharing your soul:O)

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  14. Sorry that was me who just deleted the comment. I got all my words jumbled up trying to explain I'm having a a blah day! Thankyou for this post, I shall choose happy from now on. :)
    Jess x

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  15. I needed to read this today :)

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  16. this is a great post, so insightful. thank you for sharing your thoughts with us here =-)

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  17. Sweet truth! Let's lean into it:)

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  18. Yes, yes.
    It took me so long to learn this, that happiness is not something we automatically recognise in our life.

    After years of illness and depression, I still have to stop and think sometimes, then I realise I'm feeling happy.
    It strikes me that it's such a strange feeling to experience.
    Freedom, light and peace rolled into one.

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  19. Wow, I can really relate to this. For the first few years of my marriage I was waiting for the dark side of my husband to come out. I didn't know what a healthy relationship looked like. I still find it hard to settle into happiness, 16 years later.

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  20. Really appreciate you sharing this with the rest of us...I can identify with this myself...thank you, your words are positive and encouraging :)

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